It never been an easy task for me, or at least for us to wean him off. While other people might think that I have made the wrong decision, I think each and everyone of us wants the best for their children and we are our own unique style to raise them up and give them best that we could.
Writing this entry never been easy either. I’m feeling melancholy about it.
The bond that I had with Umar for the past 20months; How he will stick with me the moment I stepped myself in the house after work, the way he request for his milk – “bukak laa”… As much as I’m telling myself that it is ok to wean Umar now, I guess I’m the one who’s not fully ready when he can accept the fact that he no longer can drink my milk directly. I’m such a shipwreck – that’s the best word to describe the feeling right now.
Tough challengers; to put him to sleep & to distract him.
First few days, to put Umar to sleep is like going into a battle field. Umar akan nangis menjerit-jerit macam kena pukul. I have to sleep in the seperate room, so that he won’t go after me, err… miss b. Hehe. So, I can hear he screaming on top of his lung from the other room. There were days that he slept by himself. So sesi terjaga tengah malam la pulak akan bising. Sometimes he wakes up twice, some time once… it depends.
But as we approaching the 3rd week this week, things are getting a lot easier. No more crying and screaming before sleeping and there were days he’ll be sleeping through the night… But still, few times I caught him selak-ing my tops during the day. Hehe. The weird thing is, mulut dia tak la pulak bising nak susu mama ni. Just tangan je selak-selak.
Ada 2,3 kali Umar tertidur sendiri sebelah Mama. Sometimes I feel sad, but at the same time I feel proud of him.
Few good things that we just discover; 1) Umar been drinking FM regularly. Previously, he will drink averagely 4-6oz per day and only at babysitter’s place. But now, he even requested for it!!! I can’t believe it when husband told me he request for his milk… I thought he doesn’t know how to do that. Yelah, mana pernah budak ni mintak susu dalam botol. Selalunya tunjuk nak susu Mama aje. Tup tup, pandai bagi botol kosong kat Ayah. So, now I guess tak payah dah risau pasal kurang susu ni. 2) His appetite also been improving a lot! But of course don’t expect his weight will increase drastically lah kan. Right now, we’re just so thankful that he been eating and drinking very, very well. Alhamdulilah.
Dah sepuluh hari di tahun yang baru, barulah nak post something ye, Aida?!
Hehe.
I was so busy starting from Xmas lagi sebenarnya. Balik kampung, lepas balik dari kampung tu… setiap hujung minggu ada je agenda jalan-jalan hujung minggu. Mentang-mentangla MIL & niece ada sini, rajin sungguh bawak diorg jalan-jalan. “Adik, if you are reading this… jangan jealous or kecik hati ok. Masa awak ada sini, kiteorg pun ralat tak bawak awak jalan-jalan. Itu tandanya suruh awak datang sini lagi! ”
Masa hujung minggu tahun baru, kiteorang pegi picnic kat Bukit Hijau.
Seronok betul dapat main air. Dahla sejukkkkk! Brrrrr!
Umar Syarif punyala excited sampai tak mau naik makan. Asik nak berendam dalam air je. Makan pun kena bersuap dalam air
Pegi sana ramai-ramai… 3 of my colleagues join sekali dengan family diorg. Memang syokla berkelah ramai-ramai
We should do this more often, girls!
Air terjun Bukit Hijau
spot Umar Syarif
Next day nya, bawak pegi jalan-jalan ke Penang Island. To Bukit Bendera & Gurney Plaza to be exact. Haha. Macam dah takde tempat lain je nak bawak berjalan-jalan. Gambar adalah dalam hp encik suami, nanti bila dah dapat saya upload kat sini ok
Lepas penat jalan-jalan mengukur kawasan, kiteorang bergerak ke Guar Perahu pulak… MIL nak jumpa sedara kat sana. Lama juga kiteorang kat sana… sampai almost maghrib. Tu pun bergegas balik sebab ada nak datang rumah, nak jumpa MIL.
Lepas tu recent weekend, bawak MIL pegi Langkawi.
Memenuhi azam tahun baru, Tok… katanya Alia (niece).
We went there on Saturday morning, took the boat from Kuala Perlis Jetty at 10.45am. An hour later, dah terpacak kat Langkawi.
Wow! Banyak betul yang berubah. Last pegi Langkawi was ten years ago kot. Students trip, rasanya.
Kak Ida (hub’s cousin) datang amik kiteorang kat jeti… terus bawak pegi rumah dia yang dekat dengan Pantai Chenang.
Lepas lunch, solat & rehat kejap… kiteorang bergerak pegi Gunung Mat Cincang! Misi naik cable car.
Lalu depan Perdana Quay tu, tapi tak singgah pun kat The Loaf sebab excited nak naik cable car. Haha. Ingatkan balik, lalu lagi depan tu… rupanya tak. Ish, rugi pulak rasa. Takpe, pegi KL kite pegi yang kat Empire Subang ok, cik abang. Hehe. Dekat je dengan Shah Alam
So, azam tahun baru MIL yang pertama, checked!
MIL awal-awal lagi cakap, pegi Langkawi tak mau shopping apa-apa pun… cuma nak pegi 2 tempat je; naik cable car kat Gunung Mat Cincang & pegi Galeria Perdana.
Tup tup, lepas turun dari cable car, tiba-tiba dah terpacak depan Idaman Suri surveying Visions, Corelle and what not. hehe. Never trust women when they said they don’t want to go for shopping! Yours truly juga terjebak… melayanglah $$$ dari dompet. Hehe. Nasib baik tak kena tax
Next day, dah tengahari baru lah keluar rumah. Ini semua gara-gara kerja Umar Syarif tukar setting timezone dalam hp Ayah. He changed it to Thailand timezone, makanya terlambat sejamla kami. Nasib baikla juga terperasan kenapa jam salah. Kalau tak rasanya, lagi lambat kot keluar. Hehe. We went to Galeria Perdana sebab semalam, nak pegi dah almost tutup. We spend about an hour jugak kat dalam galeri ni. Ingatkan kecik je, rupanya besar. Mengah juga dok turun naik, turun naik tengok koleksi barang-barang Dr. M and Dr. Siti. Lagi mengah bila kena kejar si kenit tu. Bukannya reti duduk diam… lagi pulak tempat berair-cond, lagi la sedap dia nak explore sana sini dengan riang gembira. Suara dia saje yang bergema seluruh pelusuk bangunan
Lepas penat jalan-jalan, kiteorang pegi makan tengahari kat pekan Kuah. Lepas makan, we decided pegi Underwater World sebab Umar suka tengok ikan, lagipun dekat je nak “lari” balik rumah Kak Ida as our boat balik Kuala Perlis pukul 5ptg. Konon la ingat Umar ni tak takot ikan… sekaliii… hmmppphhh, bila bawak dia pegi tepi tank ikan tu menjerit-jerit. Haha. Ada la sekali dua yang dia macam berani sikit, tunjuk-tunjuk macam berminat. Lain-lain, dia jalan je… buat deek. Sabar jelah.
Dah puas jalan, pegi borong chocolate pulak nak bawak balik. On the way balik ke rumah Kak Ida, ada orang tu boleh missed pulak simpang jalan ke rumah Kak Ida. Sepatutnya kejap, jadi lama pulak sebab kena pusing sampai ke airport.
4.15pm we bid goodbye to Kak Ida & her family. Thanks for the hospitality, Kak Ida!
Boat yang kononnya akan bertolak at 5pm, finally made a move at almost 5.30pm! Pfftt!
What a tiring weeks! But it all full of fun
Pictures will be up soon, ok?
His vocab now dah bertambah sikit. Dua tiga hari ni asik dok mengulang cakap “Awwooohhh” (Allah), “eeeeee”. Especially bila kiteorang tengah layan bola. The other day he followed husband tapau-ing food, and tv kat kedai tu terpasang siaran bola. Hubs kata riuh bunyi suara dia je kat kedai tu as other people busy eating. Haha.
He knows simple instructions; where to buang sampah and kemas balik his toys when we asked him to. Kalau part buang sampah tu anything yang dia rasa macam sampah, dia akan pegi buang. Botol vanilla essence hilang tak dapat di kesan. Saya syak Umar dah selamat masukkan dalam tong sampah… sebab haritu ternampak botol pewarna hijau dalam tong sampah.
Gigi 7 batang as for now. Haritu masa gigi ke 7 nak tumbuh, kiteorang nampak ada lagi satu nak tumbuh juga. Tapi bila gigi ke 7 dah selamat naik tinggi, gigi ke 8 tak nampak plak. Hehe. Tunggu lah lagi nak cukup kan 4 bawah, 4 atas ye.
Berat… Hmmm… Tak banyak berubah pun. Dah tak tau nak buat macam mana dah. Susu memang sah-sah susah nak minum, melainkan segar dari ladang maknya! Makan, kadang-kadang selera besar… kadang-kadang nak boleh ke 3 suapan pun susah T________T
Tapi dia memanjang dengan jayanya. Sebab nampakla seluar yang dulu kena lipat 2,3kali now dah tak payah. Lepas tu bouncer tempat lepak dia pun macam dah terlalu kecik untuk dia.
Sejak rajin duduk kat rumah berbanding pegi rumah babysitter, Umar rajin panjat tangga cari Mama. Walaupun dia tau Mama dia pegi kerja, tapi time nangis nak tido mesti naik atas cari Mama. Haiihhh la anakkk!
Umar tak suka selimut! Haihh… Duduk dalam bilik berair-cond, pun tendang-tendang selimut. Dah lama terfikir nak beli Grobag, tapi asik tunda je. Mungkin boleh try beli satu and see how. Sebab kadang-kadang biar Umar tido sorang-sorang dalam bilik berair-cond, kesian dia sejuk. Kita ni yang banyak lemak pun berselimut tebal!
Bila orang sibuk bentang sejadah nak solat, dia pun sibuk jugak la. Dulu tak tau nak rukuk. Yang dia tau berdiri dan duduk antara dua sujud. Tapi, semalam dah pandai terbongkok-bongkok sikit utk rukuk. Bila dengar orang azan, kadang-kadang dia letak tangan kat kepala… kadang-kadang tak. Doa selepas azan tu kalau dia dengar, memang siap-siap tadah tangan. Pastu sebok tengok-tengok kiteorang, macam bagi hint suruh tadah tangan jugak. Hehe.
“Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.
Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah’s grace.”
Banyak kejadian yang saya dengar dan saya lihat depan mata kebelakangan ini.
Bila tengok orang diduga/diuji, saya percaya mereka berada dalam permerhatian Allah dan Allah mahu menjadikan mereka insan yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah.
I have seen someone totally changed after what had happen to her.
She no longer the person that I used to know. She been avoiding people, muka tak ceria, and I think dia terlalu absorb with her problems until she is not herself anymore.
I miss her very much. The old her.
It all ties back on how you handle the problem.
You could be very calm and cool or you could be very frustrated, mad, sad and let the problem control you.
Some people bila ada masalah atau kesulitan, kita tak nampak pun dari riak muka atau gerak geri dia. Sampailah bila orang tu cerita, barula tahu.
I wish I could be one of them. Yang tak terlalu emosi bila berdepan dengan dugaan. Ni tak, sikit-sikit nak melenting
Kadang-kadang bila terjadi apa-apa kat kawan-kawan, sanak saudara atau ahli keluarga… Saya tak tahu nak cakap apa. Bukan bermakna saya tak mahu ambil kisah, tapi saya ni jenis orang yang tak reti nak put things into words. If some people can really talk out something nice to someone that will eventually brighten up her day, I’m not that some people.
Sometimes “sabarlah”, “sabar ye”, is just not enough. People need some encouraging words which I’m not good at.
I rather sit and listen to them. Helping them in things that I could do.
To me, better keep in silent if you don’t know or not sure what to say. Nanti bila dah terlajak kata, nak tarik dah tak boleh… orang tengah sedih lagi sedih and you make yourself looks stupid by saying things that you uncertain. Better be silent than sorry.
Even myself kalau ada masalah ke hapa, I need someone to hear me out. You don’t have to say anything, if you don’t want to. I just need someone to listen to me, so that I could rationalize balik things that going on.
Kadang-kadang I talked to my car. Sounds funny, but yes. I talk to my car. Bcos all I need is just a “place” where I could rant and talk and scream. After that I collected myself back and be normal again.
Whatever happen in our life, I believe things happen for reason.
Setiap ujian dan dugaan adalah setimpal dengan kemampuan kita. Allah takkan uji benda yang kita tak mampu nak tanggung.
To Him we shall rely on. For which He wants us to be a better person and closer to Him.
Ya Allah… sibuknya 2,3minggu ni.
Mak, Bapak & adik-adik datang bulan lepas sebab attend kenduri Kak Nazirah tersayang. Tahniah, Kak Nazirah!
Si Umar tu sukalah bila ada ramai orang kat rumah. Ramai orang layan dia. Mengada-ngada dengan Embah dia pun takpe… Embah dia mau layan. Hehe.
Ada one time tu, kiteorang bertiga je kat rumah. Mak, Bapak, adik-adik keluar pegi belah Sg. Bakap sana. Dah malam baru depa balik.
Bila diorang balik je… Si kenit tu, tersengih-sengih suka.
Hubs and I conclude yang Umar ni suka ramai orang. So, kenalah balik kampung sokmo. Hehe. Duduk rumah boring… balik-balik ngadap muka yang sama je.
As I’m typing this, adik bongsu – Pipah, ada kat rumah jaga si kenit tu. Dah almost 2 weeks kot tak pegi rumah babysitter. Nanti nak hantar dia kat sana, mesti muka sedih. I’m going to let hubs handle that. Kalau dengan Ayah dia, Umar tak berapa nak buat drama sangat. Sebab dia tau, buat lah drama macam mana pun… Ayah tak layan.
Nasib baik juga Pipah ada kat rumah. Boleh la jaga Umar since tak boleh hantar dia kat babysitter.
Rupanya Umar kena scabies! Yang dia dok tergaru-garu tu sebab scabies lah.
Dah jumpa doc sebelum ni. Tapi dia tak mention scabies pun.
Then we decide to go to another clinic, that lady doc, immediately dia cakap “Ni scabies!” T__T
Berjangkit dari mana tah tatau la. Dengan kiteorg sama kena sekali. Hubs la teruk sikit lepas Umar, tangan dia penuh naik bintik-bintik tu.
Now dah ok, Alhamdulilah. Nampak bersih sikit kulit Umar. Kalau tak tu penuh merah-merah, gatal. Kesian sangat.
Bila anak sakit ni kan… mula la delima sorang Mama ni.
Kat pejabat asyik teringat-ingat anak kat rumah.
Sometimes I wonder why in a first place I become a working mom. To pay study loan.. yeah, yeah! And shoping, ping, ping
Bila dah jadi wanita berkerjaya ni… banyaklah tuntutan kerja nya.
Kadang-kadang rasa sibuk pasal apa pun tak taula. Kerja makin bertimbun-timbun, tak nampak surutnya…
Sampai bila tah nak habis.
Yesterday ada meeting kat Penang. Habis meeting terus pegi lunch kat Papparich, e-Gate. Sembang punya sembang dengan Shan… sampai tak sedar dah pukul 2. Banyak juga benda yang kiteorg sembangkan… Ada tu, siap terfikir-fikir lagi masa drive balik to mainland.
I have worked so hard… but yet still not enough for them. Wonder juga, apa lagi tah yang diorg ni nak? Direction keep on changing. Lepas tu yang ni pula. A belum lagi stabilize nak pegi project B pulak. Dengan resource constraint lagi… Pening kepala.
Susah bila kerja kita kena puas hati seseorang. Sampai bila tah nak puas. Lantakla labu… as long as I know what I’m doing and I’m happy with it.
Any good opportunity come in, I’m not gonna stick with this team anymore. I had enough.
Membebel pasal keja pulak… haha. Karang ada spy report kat boss baru padan muka!
Minggu ni ada banyak plan (sendiri yang plan, actually). Nak pegi saloon dengan cik Pipah tu, nak makan burger prosperity (mungkin jadi bahan bukak puasa harini ), nak bake cheese cake – most probably oreo cheese cake, nak buat mac & cheese (harapnya, kalini menjadi), nak kemas almari baju yang dah tak berupa dah (must sort out mana-mana baju yang dah tak muat T_____T)
Copy and paste from blog Kak Mon. Terima kasih kak, sebab kongsi
Pernah sahabat nabi merungut apabila melihat seorang yang badannya kasar kerana kuat bekerja dan berkata: “Alangkah baiknya jika dia menggunakan kekuatan tubuhnya itu untuk berjihad pada jalan Allah”
Mendengar itu Rasulullah s.a.w pun bersabda “Jika dia bekerja mencari nafkah untuk anak-anaknya yang kecil adalah fi sabilillah, jika dia bekerja untuk kedua-dua orang tuanya pun fisabilillah, jika dia bekerja mencari nafkah untuk dirinya sendiri juga dikira fisabilillah, tetapi jika dia bekerja dengan tujuan menunjuk-nunjuk dan riak, maka itu adalah fisabili syaitan (pada jalan syaitan).”
~Riwayat Bukhari&Muslim dan Tarmidzi.~
I must admit, being a full time mom, an engineer in the office by day ain’t easy. Harapanya semoga saya akan terus ikhlas dengan tanggungjawab ini. Amin.
It’s an ad-hoc plan actually.
When I phoned Mak tanya pasal Raya Haji kat mana, Mak cakap; “Kiteorang nak balik JB. Dah lama tak tengok rumah. Entah apalah yang jadi kat rumah tu.” — when both of us actually planning nak balik beraya kat KB & KT.
After much contemplating whether we should go back JB or not, on Friday night we found ourselves driving on the PLUS Highway heading down to JB
Dah alang-alang berada down south, I thought… hey! why not go vaccay kejap kat PD. Alah sehari pun ok apeee! Honestly, tak penah pun lagi pergi berholiday kat PD ni. So, I managed to get a very good deal for a night stay at Grand Lexis, which is on 8th November 2011.
Setelah bergembira di hari Raya yang mulia; we celebrated birthday Sajidah somewhere – I will blog about that once cousin, Iwan upload gambar , bila Kakak tanya bila nak ke KL? Dengan confidentnya I told her Monday morning… sebab nak singgah PD.
Monday morning came and I was so excited.
We departed quite late to PD and by the time we reached the hotel it is almost 3pm.
People from the hotel greet us and check my voucher if its the correct one – ada dua tau; satu Lexis lagi satu Grand Lexis.
Bila dah betul tu, diorang pun tanya la nak unload bag sekarang tak? And husband pun bukak la boot and they started to unload our stuffs.
Then, I went to the counter to check-in.
The moment I handed her (the receptionist) my voucher… dia dah berkerut seribu.
“Can you wait for a while?” “Yeah, sure.”
She then talked to her friend; “She come a day early. How?”
OMG!
Macam mana boleh terawal sehari nehhhh?? Hahahaa. Punyalah confident yang 8 November tu adalah hari Isnin.
Kan dah kena stay 2 nights. Nasib baik hotel best, ongkos nye la yang tak berapa nak best hihi.
We really had a great time there, surely come back for its private pool!
Enjoy the pictures.
The hotel
Mama, is that a pool? In our room??
Kita warm-up dulu — “basuh” kaki
Haa… Ni baru best, Ayah. Pool ni besar!
View from the room
Tengok ombak
Peace, yo!
Lepas ni nak pegi main slide kat pool sana lah ;P
I think I like slide on the ground better than slide in the pool
Suka! Suka!
Mama, can we have something like this at home?
Note:
- Kiteorang pegi beli float, swimming trunk, and some other stuffs from Giant (yang baru bukak agaknya). Ad-hoc punya pasal… semua benda pun kena beli haha. Giant just 15mins away from the hotel.
- Food was good, their folks pun nice and very helpful. Cuma yang tak tahan jawab survey over the phone. First day tatau lagi, so layankan lah… Second day, I told her I was so busy. Hehe.
- Ada lagi gambar dan video, tapi tak larat nak upload, edit semua. Speaking of video, ada satu video Umar tersengih-sengih kat sorang waitress masa kiteorang tengah breakfast. Ada masa nanti I’ll upload it.
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Air terjun Bukit Hijau
spot Umar Syarif
Revisit the old office – my very first office in PG
Last day si bam-bam Umar dengan Mak Su and we moved to Mainland! 
Started 
This little rascal at 9 months young!
Celebrate my 5th year with theCo!
8.9 magnitude earthquake hits Japan, Tsunami triggered
Wedding #1: Beloved cousin, Yana is married 
Had a short yet wonderful time with my girls at Ikano.
Umar had his 1st birthday bash and we celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary 
Wedding #2: we traveled down to JB for my cousin’s wedding reception.
Flew to KCH for another wedding! 
Wedding, wedding and wedding! Masjid Besi, Putrajaya – Kak Amal & Khanif.
SIL and her family came to our place, we went to Penang Hill; ride on the new train and went to Zoo Taiping too.
Goodbye, KM6 and hello KM3!
Bid farewell for my wonderful friend
Trip to Cameron Highland with SILs.
Went to Grand Lexis, PD.
School break and my baby sis stayed at our my place for few weeks, gosh I miss her very much!
Went back to KB & KT. We had breakfast by the beach on our way back to Penang.
The hotel
Mama, is that a pool? In our room??
Kita warm-up dulu — “basuh” kaki 
Haa… Ni baru best, Ayah. Pool ni besar! 
View from the room 
Tengok ombak
Peace, yo!
Lepas ni nak pegi main slide kat pool sana lah ;P
I think I like slide on the ground better than slide in the pool 
Suka! Suka!
Mama, can we have something like this at home?